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  He smiles back but I notice it does not reach his eyes. "In all seriousness, I thought Alex was going to have a nervous breakdown before we even made it to you. He was a mess the whole way to Florida barking at everyone and firing anyone who dared told him no." Squeezing my hand he says," I might not always be his top supporter but just know that he really does care deeply for you. More so than any of those other shmucks you have dated in the past."

  "Thanks, Jax. Sometimes it is hard to see things for what they are and not through the rose colored glasses I prefer to wear. I appreciate you sharing that with me."

  Glancing back towards the door Alex went into earlier, I excuse myself and go in search for some one on one time with my man. I think it is about time to show him how much I appreciate all he has done. They always say actions speak louder than words. Time to take action

  I knock gently on the door and enter quietly when I hear his firm, "Come In."

  "You busy?" I ask watching as he sits at a table in the corner of the room typing away on his laptop. He looks sexy dressed down in a pair of well worn jeans that hug his hips and a dark red polo shirt that clings to his broad shoulders while showing off his toned biceps.

  "Yes, but I always have time for you," he says pushing away from the desk and striding towards me. "Everything ok? Is your head hurting again?" His voice is filled with concern as his eyes roam over my body causing my stomach to clench.

  "Yes, I'm fine," I say grabbing his waist and pulling him against me. "I was missing you and thought I could come back here and keep you company."

  His eyebrows shoot up as I grasp the bottom of my shirt and pull it over my head slowly before dropping it to the floor. Keeping my brown eyes glued to green ones, I kick off my shoes and shimmy out of my jeans, leaving me in nothing but my red lace bra and matching lace boy shorts. If it wasn't for his heavy breathing and prominent hard erection pushing against the zipper of his jeans you wouldn't be able to tell he was fazed at all by my amateur striptease.

  "What are you doing Jessica?" His glassy hooded eyes and rough voice spur my heartbeat and increase my desire for him to take me.

  "If you have to ask than it has definitely been too long since we made love," I chide. "I need you Alex. I miss feeling your hands on my body and the connection we share when you come inside me. Please make love to me," I plead not caring how needy I must sound. I do need him and if it means I have to beg to get him fuck me then so be it.

  A low growl rumbles from his chest as he leans down licking a path from my jaw down to the juncture between my breasts. "I am afraid of hurting you baby," he admits nipping the soft skin careening out of the top of my bra.

  "You won't." I close my eyes marveling at how amazing it feels to have his hands on me again.

  Reaching behind me he unclasps my bra pulling it down my arms and allowing my breasts to spill out. I arch forward thrusting them against his chest begging to feel his naked skin against mine. My nipples pebble as they come in contact with his hard chest and a small moan escapes my lips.

  Reaching down he takes my heavy breasts in his hands kneading them while lightly tracing his fingers around my nipples but never actually touching them. I whimper my disappointment needing more contact.

  "So impatient, Ms. Grayson," he says brushing his fingers lightly over my aching nipples. I bite down hard on my bottom lip to stop myself from downright begging for him to stop teasing me and take me right now. I've learned his games and I intend to be a good participant as long as I can before throwing in the towel.

  Dragging his right hand down between my thighs he run his fingers up and down the soaked crotch of my panties before tightening his hand around them and ripping them from me. I glare up at him letting him know how unpleased I am at that he once again ruined a good pair of my panties.

  His knowing smirk does nothing to cool my mood. "You keep doing that I won't have any left to wear. You are overdressed Mr. Harlow. I am in impatient and it has been far too long since we have had sex. I need you naked."

  "Good point my love," he growls out sending a delicious shiver down my spine. I watch as he strips out of his clothing appreciating every dip and contour he uncovers. He really is a fine specimen.

  I don't understand why but I can feel Alex holding back. As much as he wants to be easy with me I need him to let loose. With a plan in mind I push him back onto the bed crawling slowly up on top of him and straddle his calves. I reach out lightly caressing his upper and inner thighs. I take my time touching him all over except the one place I can visibly see he wants me to touch. Leaning down I lightly blow against his cock enjoying the way it jumps and twitches every time my breath hits it.

  Alex reaches for my head but I bat his hands away not allowing him the chance to control my movements. I slowly pull him into my mouth sucking on him hard and enjoying the way his breath catches in his throat from my assault. I continue to work him in and out taking my time and enjoying moans of appreciation. Pulling him out of my mouth I swirl my tongue around his cock being sure to pay extra attention to the crown while roughly fondling his balls.

  "Fuck," he hisses through gritted teeth. "You are killing me baby."

  I grip his balls in one hand pulling and kneading them as I take him to the back of my throat and swallow. His control snaps.

  "Enough!" he growls reaching down and pulling me up by the shoulders and tossing me onto my back. I smile with anticipation knowing my dominating lover is back.

  "You're beautiful," he murmurs. As his eyes graze over my body a smile curls at my lips. He makes me feel so beautiful.

  I ache to pull him against me and nip on his pouty lips but I don't move. There is a familiar tension in the air that I understand. His darkened eyes tell me I am no longer in control of this show so I follow his lead. He bends over me kissing a line down my body starting at my chin and ending at the apex of my thighs. A shiver skims over my skin the closer he gets to my honey pot.

  "Alex, please."

  "Please what?" he asks nipping my belly button

  "I need you inside of me." I groan.

  "I love hearing you beg."

  My eyes flicker down to his and my breathing hitches at the desire shining back at me. He slips two fingers inside of me and languidly moves them in and out, keeping me on the edge but not giving me enough to slip over.

  "This is mine," he says with a smirk. "Say it baby. I need to hear you confirm who owns this beautiful pussy."

  I blush at his crude words but don't hesitate in answering him. "It is yours Alex. All yours baby."

  I hear him audibly sigh at my confirmation. His fingers feel so good stroking me into a frenzy. He picks up his pace once again taking to right back to the brink of orgasm than stills his fingers denying me what I need. I groan from frustration and lack of release which he answers with a devious grin and chuckle.

  Gripping my legs, he throws them over his shoulders digging his fingers into my fleshy ass and plunges himself into me. I cry out at the sudden intrusion and mixture of pain and pleasure. He stills himself giving my body a chance to acclimate to his size before lifting my hips up and rocking back into me. Holding me right he takes on a slow rhythm easing in and out of me, letting my pleasure build slowly.

  This is where I belong. This is where we make sense and everything else around us evaporates. I can feel every inch of him as he enters me, sliding through my wet folds and hitting all the right spots as he takes me higher.

  "You are amazing my love," Alex whispers against my ear.

  My lips crash against his, my tongue sliding in and claiming him as mine. He groans low and deep as my body clenches around him. A blissful pressure is growing deep inside of me and for the first time I am no longer afraid of my feelings for this beautiful man. I feel light and happy and complete as he works me over knowing my body almost better than I know it myself.

  "Alex...," I scream out in frustration needing to climax.

  He smirks as his eyes wash over me. Leaning down he buries his
face into my neck, licking and nibbling the sensitive spot behind my ear. His mouth moves up and down neck driving me crazy and keeping my body in limbo. His mouth traces down to my breasts latching onto a nipple and pulling it greedily into his warm mouth. He sucks it harshly nipping the tight bud while slamming his cock back into me.

  The heady combination sends my body over. I clutch him tightly as my body tightens and I come hot and fast. Wrapping his arms around me Alex screams out finding his own release. As we lay holding each other sweaty and catching our breaths I feel completely content and sated. The connection between us is stronger and more intense than it has ever been.

  Throwing caution to the wind I close my eyes determined not to look into his face for fear of rejection and breath," I love you."

  I feel his body still and tighten against mine. Worry and doubt eat away at me for what seems like forever as I lie against him waiting for him to say something. I have never felt this vulnerable and scared. Please say something.

  "Open your eyes Jessica," he commands softly. I don't want to open my eyes for fear of what I will see in his. Disgust? Rejection? Pity? Why the fuck did I have to go and ruin everything with my stupid confession? The last person I said I love you to was Travis and that didn't exactly work out very well. When will I ever learn?

  "Open your eyes," he says forcefully. Taking my chin in his hand he tilts my face up to his and I reluctantly pry my eyes open glancing up at him through my lashes.

  The warm smile on his beautiful face takes me by surprise and eases the butterflies taking flight in my belly. Burying his face into my neck he breathes in my scent.

  "You don't have to say anything," I whisper fighting away tears. "I am sorry. Just ignore what I said and we can act like it never happened." I silently plead while cursing myself for being so stupid. He still has not said anything and I am alarmed by his reaction and embarrassed by mine.

  Stirring he lifts his head from my neck and I am dumbstruck to see tears prickling his green eyes. "You are so stubborn," he sighs. "I thought you would never admit it out loud much less to yourself." His voice is rough and edgy as he speaks. I am confused. How did he already know and why isn't he pushing me away yet?

  "Stop that pretty mind of yours. You are over thinking again," he huffs. Sliding his lips against mine he breathes," I love you."

  Scattering light kisses down my face, neck and across my stomach he whispers," You complete me. You challenge me and you make me want things I never thought was possible. I love everything about you."

  I silently wipe away tears as they run down my face and take deep breaths trying to calm my scattered thoughts and feelings. He just said he loves me! Holy shit.

  An errand laugh bubbles up and out and before I can stop it. The laugh multiplies until I am lying beneath Alex laughing like a crazed lunatic. He looks down at me with a half smile and raised brow trying to figure me out.

  "I confess my love to you and you laugh?" Care to explain yourself Ms. Grayson?"

  "I am sorry," I say getting myself under control. "I am not laughing at you. I love everything you said. I didn't mean to laugh," I confess covering my face from shear embarrassment. Steadying my voice I sigh," I have worried myself sick over how you would react. I expected you to run screaming from me when I told you I loved you. I laughed because I am happy and relieved."

  Pushing a stray hair behind my ear, he kisses me lightly sucking on my bottom lip while I squirm under him. "I would never run from you Jess and if you ever try and run from me I will follow you and use every resource I have to bring you back to me."

  Snuggling into the crook of his arm I close my eyes needing some rest and loving the peace I feel surrounded by his warmth and fresh water scent. For once I feel like we are on the same path and headed in the right direction. Maybe there can be a happy ending for us after all.

  Chapter 3

  It might not be my home but being back in Alex's penthouse is the next best thing. Placing my bags down near the front entryway, I walk into the kitchen and proceed to get a glass of water so I can take my medication. I hear Alex speaking to our two new bodyguards, George and Alice and decide to go and ahead and put my bags away while he gives them a tour of the place. I'm uncomfortable with the thought of strangers living with us but understand Alex's fears and reasons. As I place my things on the floor beside his bed, I notice a few new photos decorating his walls and beside the bed. Two of them are of us from the night at the gala and one is a candid shot of me laughing with Jane from the night we went out to the club with her and Jax.

  Alex strolls in quietly behind me causing me to startle and fumble as I put down the last frame back on the nightstand. "When did you do all this?" I ask in complete awe at his sweet gesture.

  "Right after you left for Florida. I wanted to surprise you when you came home." Whispering close to my ear he says," Surprise."

  "It is the best surprise ever," I say honestly. I love sappy sweet Alex.

  He glances over at me with a sneaky smile plastered on his face that makes me nervous and on full alert. He looks like the cat that ate the canary.

  "What else did you do or what have you planned?" I ask uneasily knowing he has obviously been up to more than just erecting a few photos around the room.

  A lazy smile crosses his mouth, as he looks me over making my whole body heat and my face flush. "Close your eyes and put out your arms in front of you."

  Apprehension dances through my veins but I don't hesitate and do as he commands; curious as to what he is up to. I feel him move beside me and take my hands in his. My hands feel so small engulfed in his larger ones. Pulling me behind him he walks across the room. I am thankful he is going slowly or my shaky legs would probably end up stumbling on themselves and I would find myself face first on the floor.

  My breathing increases not knowing what to expect and hoping for the love of all that is holy that whatever he has up his sleeve is a good surprise and not something that will make me regret agreeing to stay at his place. Not that I had much of a choice.

  He stops pulling my arms and turns me so that my back is against his front. He wraps his strong arms around my waist and whispers in my ear. "Open your eyes my love."

  My eyes flutter open and my mouth drops to the floor. I am speechless as I take in the sight before me. What the hell? One whole side of Alex's super-sized walk-in closet has been transformed. Racks upon racks of new clothing, shoes, and accessories fill in the new space and everything is in my size, taste and favorite colors. There is enough clothing in here to fill a small department store. As I walk through eyeing it all I notice that all has been organized from casual to formal and by color. All pieces include a high end label with fabrics ranging from silk to leather to cashmere and a few others I have never even heard of. I can feel Alex's heated stare on me as he studies my face intently trying to read my reaction. I stay silent not trusting myself to speak just yet.

  "You also have three drawers that are now yours in our bedroom filled with new bras, panties and some sexy lingerie that I cannot wait to see you in."

  Our bedroom? I nod my head taking in his words and trying to decipher how I feel about all of this. I appreciate his thoughtfulness and the fact that he feels comfortable enough about us to take this big step, but the other half of me is pissed because he did it all without speaking with me first. This is all starting to move really fast for me and I can't help but feel a bit hesitant.

  Picking my words carefully I ask," Why did you do all this?"

  A look of hurt flashes over his face before he quickly covers it. "If you don't like it, I can have Kelly remove it all and give it to charity. I thought you would enjoy having your own clothes here and not having to pack a bag every time you stay over. Since you will be staying here until you heal, and I thought this would make it easier on you."

  Shit! I am handling this all wrong. "I appreciate it all Alex. I just all seems fast and I wish you would have spoken to me first about it. I feel like there is still so
much I don't know about you. I don't even know your favorite color," I say pressing my hand against his chest needing to feel some form of contact with him. His heart is beating so fast and I smile realizing how nervous he is right now. "I love you more than anything but we have a lot to learn about each other and until you get your divorce settled and out of the way this," I say motioning to the clothing," feels wrong."

  Alex's stormy eyes narrow on me and I move my hand back down to my side realizing I have just poked the beast and he is not happy. Alex pushes past me walking back into the bedroom. I hear the bedroom door slam shut and I a shiver of fear rolls through my body. I don't know what to do. Did he leave or is he waiting for me in the bedroom? Should I leave the closet and see what he is doing or do I stay where I am and hope he forgets I am here and takes a moment to calm down?

  Curiosity gets the better of me and I cautiously walk out of the closet not knowing what I will find. Alex is pacing the bedroom liked a caged animal. I can tell he is stressed by the way his hand keeps pushing through his hair. He looks completely lost and forlorn.

  "Alex, how can you expect me to move forward with you when I know so little about you?" Our whole relationship has moved at warp speed and I feel lost." I pick up a pillow off the bed hugging it against my chest drawing what little comfort I can from it as I sit down on the bed propping myself up against the headboard.

  "You're being ridiculous," he huffs. "You know me better than anyone I have ever been with," he shouts angrily.

  "Then that is really sad because besides the everyday facts I don't know anything in depth or personal about you." I feel a knot building in the pit of my stomach and I hate it. We just got back home and we are already fighting.

  Alex looks down at me and furrows his eyebrows. "Fine. You get five questions. Ask me any five questions and I promise to answer them truthfully. After that I don't want to hear anymore of this bullshit about you not knowing me and for future reference my favorite color is dark grey. The clothes stay and until you are fully healed and out of harms way you live here with me. End of story," he growls out loudly leaving no room for negotiation.